Will You Still Love Me

On days when I don’t go the parlor

Because I had been balancing your budget,

And my hair is not so soft, nor is my skin

Will you love me the way you always did?

When my hands are a bit scrubby

Since I do the dishes after our meals.

When I get sunburns while buying grocery

Will you love me the way you always did?

When my eyes are no longer so seducing

Since they haven’t slept due to your mom’s health

And some days I am not able to cook you a meal

Will you love me the way you always did?

When my body is no longer toned & I am flabby

since I brought in this world our greatest joy

& on days when you seem more fit & fine

Will you love me the way you always did?

When I become busy in bringing up our kids

& at times I can’t be with you much time

When I miss your parties due to kid’s exam

Will you love me the way you always did?

When at last the crumbles of my dress

begin to show up on my cheeks & lips

When I become short because I stoop

Will you love me the way you always did?

When I find it hard to hear what you say

& I can’t give you a tight hug when you’re down

Will still my love suffice for all your needs?

& will you still love me the way you always did?

The Mask

Sometimes in life we experience real happiness

When we think more bout others & for us less.

To think about others gay is not an easy task

Though you be sad: you’ve to wear a smiling mask.

Something deep within the heart pinches to us

& we are compelled to feel that life is a curse.

But that pain forever does not in heart seal

Be sure that one fine day it is going to heal.

Then the dark clouds from mind get shattered

& we find quite a few things by us scattered.

If you have worn your mask and tried best

To hide your tears then fine will be rest.

The scattered things will be appreciation of all

& showers of praises& love on you will fall.

But if your face has been the image of your mind

Negligence & solitude is what you will find.

So if you want happiness after a sadistic state

Be a diplomat; although false, you’ll find some mate.

Shelter my Soul

Shelter my soul into your heart

Coz in my body, it’s tearing me apart.

I’ve kept it with me for years

But now for you, it’s all in tears.

I could never give it, what you could.

Love into my soul - you have put.

And it’s chasing you – where do you go?

I’m all lifeless here, how do I show?

I have never ever felt so empty before

Coz you’re not only my love, but my life for sure.

I know you aren’t in peace out there too:

Since my longing for you wont allow you to.

So don’t keep us both into this pain

Let the dark clouds on you drench me in their rain.

Not only would you relieve your load

But also soothe the agony that I’ve endured.

So pour your love on me & I’ll show

The Heavens behold for us a rainbow!

Longing for my Shore

I have traveled distance from all I love

I am shoved in a place I least deserve.

Not that life had for me no options in store,

But new horizons I wanted to explore, leaving behind my shore.

Now each day comes in with a new learning for me

New people & experiences around, I take gleefully.

The day just passes in getting all that I wanted,

& the night dawns upon with my cravings unheeded.

Craving for a meal cooked with love & served,

The touch & care of someone I have loved.

Looking at the stars, I remember the days

When I had the friendly stars with me always.

Today the clouds of distance have hid from my eye

The twinkle in her eyes which for me does lie.

But I know the darkness wouldn’t last for long.

The morning bird will soon sing a welcome song.

When life will be bright & would open to me a door

To a place where I can live with all I love-back on my shore.

The Wonderous Night

The earthly star is going to drown
Making the world dark & brown
In the ocean deep will it go
To make a day again tomorrow.

The silver flower will appear in garden
Of the universe in the heaven .
It will send off all it carries
With the loving & affectionate fairies.

It’ll grow brighter & brighter as the night darkens
& will peep through my window from the heavens
I’ll give all thine to it, I swear
because the companions like it are rare.

I’ll talk to him all about whom I care
The one whom I do see in my nightmare
Until the morning star is set to arrive
& I will from the moon get deprive.

But I know, its always with me
Let it be night or day it be
I’m not alone in the world as such
Because I carry with me its touch.

Wealth-earthly & heavenly

Two men I’d seen as converse as they could be
One craved for materialism & other for wealth-heavenly.

The first would search for ways he could earn,
The latter passed his life in love and to learn.

Bit kind was first, as to help, donated his wealth,
The other well-hearted did strive with his health.

Many gave the merchant jewels of praise,
The other was made to spend days in haze.

The merchant was cunning, nor devotee, nor brave,
The poor was prepared to face his deity in grave.

One regarded his family as his world,
For the other; world was family, I had heard.

The first was left in his grave alone to moan,
For the other, blessings & love of God were thrown.

The earlier was remembered in world for his greeds,
The other was praised by people for his deeds.

The first one along with his death had died,
The latter, in people’s heart, after death has lied.

Unwiped Tears

Happy & sad days don’t forever stay
The tide of time wipes each of them away
Before he came-it was so plain
He came in life as season’s first rain
Soothing & calming, his effect was so intense
He spread everywhere in life love’s fragrance.
Then came the spring of togetherness
& everything else than we did dispense
I started to feel that we both are in love
He keeps my place separate from all & above
In his heart I had made a place of mine
This was my perception of dreams so fine
But then came the autumn & carried along
The moisture of our love along with a storm
I could not find what broke our trust
Although we were close; miles were between us.
I tried to hold it much more tight
To make all fine & set wrong right.
But then I realized that he was smoke
He escaped away & my heart broke
He didn’t care to know what would be I
And left me alone in this agony to die
Those happy days spent & I didn’t realize
To know whether love on his part lies
Maybe it was I misinterpreted his behavior
But at least my opinion about him he did hear
Then why didn’t he tell me this ever before
That he is the wave who wouldn’t stay on my shore.
A tide was not needed this time my joys to wipe
My tears washed it all & remained unwiped..

Missing You

Those are the bitterest moments
That you love without you spends.
Your physical absence makes me mad
Without you all my joys are sad
I carry with me but you always
You’re spread in my life like sunrays
How I miss you, I can’t explain
Away from you life is a pain.
It is like the darkest cloud in the sky
Full of rains but then too dry.
The mountain of my patience so high & strong
Goes weak in your absence & all is wrong.
All the flowers in blossom fade
Scorching heat lies in coolest shade.
To be without you is more painful
Than having of some venom cupful
I would not want to be with me
As much as I want with you to be.
The stars in the sky will always stay
Be it night or be it day
Similarly I carry you presence with me
‘coz physically you are absent, not mentally.
No eyes do see you in the morning light
It’s me who’ll have you day & night
‘Coz to see & feel something that is hidden
Is not everyone’s forte, else than love bitten

God, Me & He

I was walking on the road of life
Holding hands with my God.
When I met a fellow who said
In your love I am engrossed.

I, too, fell in love with him
At his first sight on me
Life’s most beautiful journey began
With God, me & he.

But then one halt came in life
When he began to think
Can we three walk together?
Won’t it our love ship sink?

Since he believes that God of mine
Is different from his Lord
Coz both have different names
How can both we afford?

So if I want to be with him
I have to choose among
My love & my Lord
Oh! What’s right what’s wrong?

I can’t now live without my love
& how do I leave my God
Both of them make up my soul
For which one do I nod?

Only if he could understand
That God is never twain
The only realization required is
Our prayers are the main.

How do then I leave my faith
Who on every step of life
Has been my support & strength
How do I quit Him & be his wife?

I found my Lord saying, one day, to me
When so confused, I closed my eyes
That even if you hold his hand
Your Lord with you always lies!

Life Is a Movie

             Life for me is like a movie. Some people believe in destiny & some in Karma. For me life is a combination of both-I’ll tell you how. When we go to see a movie, the whole plot is set up by the director. That’s destiny. But we choose which movie to go to. That’s Karma. When we see a movie, even directed by those mortals, we get so involved that we associate ourselves with those characters. We laugh with them, cry with them, sing with them & get so lost that at a point we even forget that we are two different identities.
             Life is a movie directed by God-& He has directed-I don’t think I have to tell you they are infinite. So if a man-made movie can charm us so much, we certainly can be completely swayed by His movies & moves. We forget that what we are going through at that point in time is just a make believe & after the show is over, we have to go back home. That’s the way many people live their lives. Some adapt the roles of the hero, some of the heroine, some are just appendages, and some are villains.
             But all of it has to come to an end & back home we are answerable as to what did we learn from it. You can always choose which movie would you like to watch-romantic, action, thriller, drama-the rest is just directed by God. At any point you are free to switch to any other movie-& that way even change your destiny. Then there are times when you feel nothing is making sense. At those times you have to think from the perspective of the Director.
             If you really love the movie, you’ll enjoy every bit of it; or more aptly put-you’ll only enjoy every bit of it, if you love the movie. At the same time you always have to bear in mind that nothing is for real. All the riches, that the character you associate with yourself has, are not going to be carried home with you. But the traits are.
              Like I say- stories go with the flow; what we are left in the end with are morals. When you are too low in life, all that you have to do is get out of the skin of that character. And when even that doesn’t work, just switch to another movie folks……

Sweet Memories of Childhood

Sweet memories of childhood seed in a bud,
Still remind me of my castle of mud.
I fly in my past’s long drive to gather,
The scattered moments of joy together.
The past journey, where I could see love till eternity,
& love among fellow beings depicted fraternity.
Where no cruelty did lie in ones passion,
Where in love there was no adulteration.
The true love and affection of my childhood life,
Intensifies the bitterness of my youth’s sweet knife.
Those golden days were just spent in a blink,
About which I write with tears as the ink.
None care about the feelings of a grown up child,
& take their sensitivity in a manner very mild.
People think they’re capable of standing on their own,
Coz they believe a very fine seed they have sown.
But forget that their seed needs support of family,
To grow from a seed- to a plant- to a tree.

This evening at 6

A mother somewhere was robbed of her child
A child somewhere wondered where his bird flied
A bird completed her nest with the last stroke of grass
The grass somewhere felt the cold feet of an elderly lady
A grandmother was shoved by her kids in an asylum
Someone just went mad in the love of a beauty
A beauty just broke the friendship of someone
Somebody made friends with one who was lonely
While someone sitting alone on a beach gazed at the sunset.
A sunset, which at the same time mesmerized two lovers
The love of someone deserted the life of other
The thirst unquenched of someone in a deserted land
Somebody shook hands with death coz hope shook off him
Somebody lighted a ray of hope where hands join to pray
Someone joined hands on a stand for humanity
Somewhere humanity suffered on the hands of terror
Someone made peace after a long season of hatred
Somewhere the season gave a pleasant change
And some change brought a pleasant season
Some of the many things that happened
This evening at six

If It Had Life

I wish that god had given everything a heart,
That would be with me on my life’s path.
If all things could hear and speak to me,
To share I wouldn’t have needed a family.
Imagine that the stars could make conversation,
There would be a charm in the nights passion.
If there were drops of emotion in the rainfall,
My thirst would have been quenched of body and soul.
If in the deepness of sea, love had lied,
It would take away my tears with its tide.
If along with cool breeze was affection of wind,
& peace of mothers lap would lie in tree of tamarind.
I wouldn’t have need a friend or a relative,
Since the creator would have created his creation so creative.

Star Of My Life

From all the near and dear one
I choose you as my life’s real fun.
You are the most indispensable part of me
Without you life would be dead surely.
The thought to stay without you drives me crazy
Your absence makes sky of my life hazy.
It is not that I have in my life very few
But I don’t have anyone as precious as you.
The stars in the sky don’t make the night
The night is in existence coz of the moons might.
But there is a night when the moon disappears
& the charm of the stars do reduce my fears.
Everybody in this world comprise of the moon so far
Not in the moon you are, but my life’s star.
Coz I know that even when the moon will betray
The star in the sky of my life will always stay.

Clay Talk

I was a soft piece of clay
Waiting to be shaped today.
I wanted my Potter to make me
Into a masterpiece of pottery
Then you came to my alarm,
thrusting in my tender heart your palm
You played with me till your hearts content
& I thought I’ll be with you till my end
But that wasn’t the case; you went your way
washed your hands & wiped all my traces away.
& I was left with your impression on me,
when others asked me that tough I have to be
I became hard so that no one else could trick
& with the heat of the pain, I turned to a brick.
You wiped me from life, but how do I get away
Since your imprint on me will forever stay

Unending search

When I was apart from you far a few days
My longing embraced along with it a gaze.
I gaped at any door & believed that you’ll enter
& in your soothing arms you’ll give my agony a shelter
My eyes kept looking for you at all the places
I kept looking for your face in all other faces.
Unaware of why my search was so foolish
I still kept searching to console my anguish.
& then came the day when I returned back
The joy in my heart suffered space’s lack
Now you would be imagined & it wouldn’t be
only imagination but could also be reality.
I wanted to cup your face in my palms
Throw away all the tears in your arms
Would you make a drink of your love & give it to me
Coz without it I have been so dead & thirsty.
I don’t know when I see you, if tears flow
Or with euphoria a smiling face would glow.
All things set I fixed my eyes on the door
Through which, about you coming, I was sure.
And now you tell me that you have shifted
Time & vexation has me from you drifted.
And all my feelings are now lying like a mail
Outside a closed door, like an untold tale.
How much I now hope that it wasn’t true
But still my eyes keep searching for you.

Forlorned

They say that when all's wrong
the ones who stand by make you strong.
Pain & suffering do come everyday
But those you love-ease your stony way.
On a sunny day you feel so fresh under a cloud;
but when the cloud douses you with a thunder sound-
where are you going to shelter seek
when every roof you go under does leek?
the ones under whom you get solace
have placed you in solitude's embrace!
You can live abandoned by the world,
when you know that your woes will be heard.
But when those ears dishonor your speech-
you feel like a maimed bird forlorned on a beach.

Love with a broken heart

If one day you cross my way
& ask that if I love even today?
Your mind will think I won’t
But my heart doesn’t say I don’t.
You chose to stay away from me
But separate from you I couldn’t be.
Consoling friends & a betraying lover
That’s what was left in life forever.
You went away & never did care
If I am dead or still I am there.
But my love wasn’t so weak dear
Farther you went, I held you more near.
When you were with me I did say
I love you more than any one may.
But I didn’t know that I don’t love
Only that much but quite above.
I realized that when you went far
& pain my heart suffered at no par.
It was then that I took it as God’s will
& knew the reason behind an act ill.
Perhaps my love wasn’t ample for your heart
Much more love was deserved on your part.
So God took away my heart from my body
& gave me broken pieces of part of me.
So now I love you no more with my heart
But you are being loved with every broken part.

Never knew-would feel this way

I never knew that I would feel this way,
When once again in my life crosses your way.
It is said out of sight is out of mind-
Maybe, hence, I couldn’t my love’s depth find.
How I have been swayed away, how do I show?
What am I feeling, can anyone else than me know?
I had dried up my heat when I knew
You have gone so far that I can’t reach you.
& I convinced myself so hard about it
so that I don’t die everyday a little bit.
I cajoled myself so well in this affair
that for your extant I really didn’t care.
& now suddenly that you stand here;
I’m accosted to a queer fain & a fear.
Never did I know that I still love you so
Now I sit & conjecture how did I let you go?

I'll wait till eternity

When I felt lonely in crowds
I have held your hand.
When I have cried silent tears
I had your hand wipe it away
When I have been jubiliant
I have celebrated with you.
When I had a deep secret
I have shared it with you.
When I have been nervous
I had you standing by me.
When I have felt blue
You've lifted my spirits.
When I have fallen sick
You took care of me.
And I too want to do
All you've done for me & more
So please tell me
Where will I find you?
If you need a reason,
Will this reason be enough?
That people fall in love
with the ones they know
But I have loved someone
-Not even knowing if he exists.
But still I have loved you
with the hope that my faith & love
will get you to me
Even if you are'nt there.
God will create the you in someone
and send across to me.
Dont come to me if you feel
That someone can love you
after knowing you, more than I do
despite being unaware of your whereabouts.
But if you dont come, dont think
that I shall know someone else & love.
I shall keep loving you & wait
till the time it pulls you to me.